[Potter]

Thank you for the support and encouragement. I have been struggling with it for some time but it wasn't this bad. I still could talk myself out of it but lately, its been getting out of hand...I have not talked to hubby seriously just some light hints and being him, I don't think he is much aware. I myself am not too sure which is it..whether it is moving to a new place and feeling lonely or it has been dragging so long that it is turning in to depression. I really have no idea what it is like. Just feels like sometimes it gets very suffocating and tiring and bone aching (which might be from carrying 7 pounds siu pao on the shoulder around or something else I am not sure either)..like I can't breath and I am not even working or having the stress from work! That is why I don't tell my hubby...I don't want to add to his stress or to make him think why I feel like that when I am at home with no job stress.I will try..if I can't I will sit hubby down and talk to him to get medication and help.I have to really try and make through this.