Yes I know how you feel. I left my hometown when I was in my late 20's and I was so terribly homesick it was awful. I had 4 children at the time, then I got pregnant and became very depressed being so far away from my family.
I would write long long letters because we couldn't afford long distance phone calls. My husband drove bus for Greyhound, so he was never home. Lonely was an understatement.
I finally realized that I had to get over my depression because my kids needed me and I didn't have the luxury of sitting aroujnd feeling sorry for myself.
Some how I made it through. My kids are all grown with homes of their own. But I still to this day have no close friends. My daughters are now my friends.
I too was rather shy and not one to make the initiative to make friends, And I think most people thought I was stuck up.
I would suggest that you do some volunteer work. Maybe at the local animal shelter. Knowing that some one or something depoends on you helps to keep you going.
Good Luck and may God bless. |