Has anyone here ever felt lonely? Deep loneliness? Like life is going no where? I never have felt this hard before. I don't seem to be able to find any REAL girlfriends in Toronto. I meet girlfriends and usually I think everything is going well but I know its never anything real. When they need you, they expect you to be there but when you need them, they are busy with their guys. I came from a place where everyone is really friendly and girls hang out have dinner without their men and strong bonds are formed.When I have a problem, I don't know who to talk to. Hubby is a man and most of the time, they don't understand emotions. Its hard to pour your heart out to them and get them to understand and he is always busy with work. I never tell what I feel to to my family back home because I know they will worry themselves sick. On top of that, I can't work or study right now which makes it even harder to meet anyone. Sometimes, I wonder if I am having depression? I don't know.I am not able to talk to the family I have here either as we are not close to the point of pouring my heart out not even to my mother-in-law. I also barely know my way around which makes me feel stupid and incompetent at times.When I am with a big group of people, more than 4 people, I get really nevous but its been better since I have a puppy now. I feel I am crushing inside and I don't know how to tell anyone...I guess it is a good thing that I found YT coz I really enjoy being on here everyday.I really don't know what is wrong with me. I try to be happy and greatly appreciate what I have everyday but its hard. The only time is when I feel being so loved by my Siu Pao and hubby when he is actually paying attention to me.Do I have a problem?
Will all these thoughts go away?The deep lonelines I meant.