I dont know if this helps you in anyway or if your a beleiver but... Sometimes talking with an animal communicator helps. They can contact those who have passed over. I wasnt a beleiver until I heard it with my own ears. I have seen two different ones and both of them told me the same exact thing that no one else would of known. I had lost my girl very tragicly and suddenly and I told both these women nothing and they were able to tell me what had happened even to the point of how we found her. My Gaylynn had passed on Feb 25th she had an unknown tumor that had burst killing her instantly and caused her to bleed out. The first one I saw she came out to my house days after this had happened and she told me what my other dogs saw and felt at the time this happened. One of my dogs told her that I had favored Gaylynn because she was so special and had special needs (emotionally she was a BYB rescue) but it was ok Nikki understood that she had special needs. I NEVER told anyone this not even my fiance that she was favored, I felt guilty for feeling this way about her and favoring her. I didnt even tell this woman she was a rescue. She told me alot of things that my dogs had felt that no one would of known. She was unable to reach my Gaylynn at the time because it was so sudden and to soon.
The second one I had spoken to (no reason for seeing different ones, the one was a guest speaker at one of my yorkie club meetings and I had a session with her just because she was there). She reached my Gaylynn and told me the same thing the other one had said. She said my Gaylynn was waiting for me to contact her and she told me things about our relationship that no one would of known. She wanted to tell me it wasnt my fault I wasnt there and it was just her time, there was nothing I could do to save her even if I had known. From the outside she looked totally healthy even to the vet she looked healthy.
If you want their info PM me and I will give it to you, if you would like to speak with one to help. Its really helped me in so many ways
Every friday night I think to myself if I would of know that was going to be my last night with her what would i of done differently. If I would of only known I would of never left her side that day. I cant get the image of my dead dog out of my head. She was fine that day I left my house, she was her same happy self she even ate her morning cookie. I try and comfort myself in knowing that I loved her so much and gave her a life from that awful place she came from.
The animal communicator said she told her I gave her a life, I showed her what it was like to be loved and she thanked me for saving her. I never told her she was a rescue.
Ok need to stop now Im complelty in tears again. It does get easier as time passes I promise |