[AngieGA]

I am not able to sleep much on Sunday nights, knowing it was my last night with Dexter. Ten weeks ago he had been sick on the weekend but we had NO idea that on Monday we would have to decide to put him to sleep.


Ten weeks ago he came to my side of the bed (as he always did) to get helped up to sleep with us. This was at about 130 am - he slept with us a while then jumped down (I always somehow felt it when he would jump down). I would give anything if he could sleep with me again. Yes, my h is in our bed too but it feels so empty (Tye sleeps with Blake).

I miss him so much - I know he is better off and he knows how much we love him but I want him back. I know that sounds childish or whatever and I know he won't be back with me here in this world but I miss him so !!

I know you are all people that understand - that is why I write this here. I am sure others would think I have totally lost it but I don't care I miss my baby terribly !!