[AngelandLily]

after arguing I had my tubes tied in the Navy in 98. and couldn't get preggers. so why waste my time and thiers on that. after all I was just sick all week with the flu. I remember getting the results back and being on the phone with my husband hearing the nurses screaming about CNN and the Towers, and what was once my favorite place to go when I lived in DC. and I had had some Dear friends that still worked in those offices.

God Hold John,Mealline and Alice. God Hold Ya.


Only Good that came of that day was I found out my daughter Abigail Marie was to be born. that's all.

I remmebr calling my xCo and trying like all mad to find out who died if anyone I knew and what the hell was going on. and anger terrible anger. I was more mad at what happened at the Pentagon and NY,than what happened to me. innocents. hearing the innocent dying,hurt murdered.

Mad me more mad and angery than I ever felt before. getting shot by a crook is one thing it's a game of cops and robbers and the good guy doesn't always win. but this wasn't something that could be controled atleast not by us. Hell I had a gun adn shot back.... they had nothing. nothing.

made no sense. and the stuff of nightmares.

God Have Mercy on those who left this world that day.



sorry all this is depressing and one of the many reasons I don't watch TV or the news on this day.













sometimes the good guys lose.