Angel,
Many, many prayers for you right now. I just wish I could reach through this screen and give you a great big hug! I know how you feel, like nothing else matters anymore. When my beloved Katied died, she truly was my first "baby", had her in my life 2 years before my first human baby. She slept with me and hubby, went just about everywhere with us. When she died, she took a huge part of me with her. I, like you, was depressed, didn't want to eat, nothing else mattered to me and the last thing on this earth I wanted was another furbaby! I felt that was a disgrace to Katie's memory and I just didn't want to love another the way I loved her. But finally the time came and I desperately wanted another in my life - thus Gabby came along and although I love her with all my heart, it is a different love than what I had with Katie. As others have said, you need to find someone to talk to - your pastor, a church member, someone that can help you during this difficult time. And when the time is right, you'll open your heart to the idea of another furbaby who you will love and pamper and spoil just as you did with Lily!
May God bless you and watch over you during this time!
__________________ Suzi - mom to Gabby and Gage  For Mickey |