She did offer for me to come and see her. But I couldn't. Is that bad? I couldn't see her like that. I want to remember her wiggling, barking, loving, licking, cuddling. I can't remember her like this, it would hurt too bad. I called the cremation service to come pick her up. My breeder did offer to pay, but then quickly said "How much is it going to be, $100?" I don't care if she pays for it or not, the dog deserves a proper cremation.
I want to wake up and realize that this was an awful nightmare. But it isn't.
I want to curl up and sleep this off, but the pain will never go away. |