When I read your thread, I could totally relate. I'm sorry for your loss and It will take alot of time to deal. I know cause I didnt lose my parents but my grandmother who was like a mother to me. She was the greatest person on earth. The one who seemed to always keep us all together. She was the rock in our family. She was the sweetest, most kind person I know. She was 86 when she died. I'm thankful that she was never really sick and in pain. She died in her sleep and no one excepted it. Still to this very day (She died in 98) I find myself at times still crying just wanting one more talk, one more lunch together, one more trip to the ice cream store. She was a very good Christian so I know she is in heaven with my grandpa (Who I've never met, he died when my mom was 13) She never remarried because she said he was the love of her life. I wish I could say it gets easier and it does to some extent but if you are like me you will have good days and bad days. When someone makes such an impact on our lives we are the selfish ones who still wants them her beside us. We are just human. Just know that your mom is out of pain and cherish the moments you had with her. I still have a pic of my grandma on my refridge and when I do the dishes I still talk to her. I'm be praying for a way to help God help you deal.
