I have walked in your shoes and I understand your emotions of desperation, frustration, and confusion.
Here is prayer I came to rely on..
Lord, I know that nothing will happen to me today, that you and I cant handle together. Amen
I hope you can foster your baby, and when you life is more settled may your furbaby return to you.
Peace and love to you,
Chelsea'sMom
PS...if I was near you, which I am not, in Texas, I would happily apply to be your baby's foster mother.