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i wasnt ready for kids, i will def. admit that i was engaged an on birth control, but i guess accidents, happen, and dont get me wrng i love my baby, he is also a very sweet loving attentive baby, but i do get tired, i guess it is because i am by my self the majority of the time. i also liek him sleeping with me too, but i know he needs his own bed...he is such a cuddler..lol..my mom has been saying to take him to the old babysitter twice a week, which i need to, to socialize him, i am also signing us up for baby gym in july. we go to the park, and out to lunch, today when went to different pet shops to look at bunnies, birds, cats, fish, turtles, etc...maybe i made it sound a little worse then it is...i in no way smack his legs hard enough to hurt him, just get his attention...i went around a few minutes ago changing things in the house, taking reachable things and putting them away, i a looking for the screw driver to but the saftey stuff on the cabinets, we are also working on the ABC's and 123..i guess being all day every day it gets the better of me, every once in awhile..i would never harm my baby for so many reason, one is he is so little he was born so early im scared of him getting hurt easily.. time out is working a little bit, after my initial posting i cooled down and was able to take it one step at a time. i am young but my husband is older and that helps balance things when he is gone, i am also not used to my husband being gone for weeks at a time, this is so new to me. i love my family..please dont think that im a terrible mother..
also love the things he does, i always say that i hope he stays cute and cuddley forever, he hugs and blow kisses, rubs my back..i love please dont think any different and i do not resent him in any way...he my little man.. |