I also know what you are going through. It's been a little over 2 weeks since Jewel died and I still cry every day but I'm getting better.
Things that helped me are:
1. Crying! A Lot! I let myself sob out loud over her.
2. Reading all the condolences on YT and Crying again
3. Made a "Memory Book" of Jewel - Crying while making it. The book is 94 pages and has over 160 pictures in it. I built it on Shutterfly and took 2 days to make it.
4. Made a Jewel shrine. It's a small trunk with her picture, favorite toys, her collar hanging on a cross, her dish, a lock of her hair, baby tooth, her ashes, cards from friends, and a cast of her paw made at the veterinary office.
5. Talk about her to any who would listen.
6. Wrote a Tribute to her
7. Posting all sorts of information on what I learned while dealing with Jewel's illness. I don't want Jewel's death to go to waste if I have the knowledge to help another from grief.
I guess everytime I "DO" something in her memory, it helps to mend my heart. It's helped me realize I did EVERYTHING I could to make her short life have meaning and comfort.
Suggestion: Research about any strange virius that could have taken your baby. Post what you find here on YT and let us know what you found and help someone else from your loss.
I hope your heartache is replaced with all the good memories you shared. |