Deb,
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I wish there was some magic pill you could take to get over it, but that just doesn't happen. It's been over a year since Bandit died and most of the time I'm fine. But, every once in a while I just start thinking about him and I cry. I think when they say time heals, it means that after time you don't think about it as much, but when you stop and think about it, it still hurts.
The only thing that got me through it was YT. I would read what people wrote to me, and it was a place where I could grieve and talk about him and people didn't think I was nuts!
I said I absolutly would not get another yorkie. It just hurt too much. I didn't want Bandit to think I was trying to replace him. But, after a few weeks I realized that I loved Bandit too much NOT to get another one. He opened my heart to yorkies and I had to have another one. I couldn't imagine life without one. Tucker came to us a month after Bandit died. I wanted to name him Bandit, no one else in my family would go for it. I'm so glad now that I didn't because he's as different from Bandit as he could be. We named him after the Dr. who tried to save Bandit, so his name still has a connection.
I totally think getting another one is the right thing to do. Poor Tucker, I was terrified when we first got him. I remember one night he had diarrhea and I spent the night holding him and crying and saying "Don't you dare die on me. I can't do it again"
Now, a year later, he is my darling little boy. I love him as much as I loved Bandit. He didn't replace Bandit, if he did I wouldn't miss him. But he helps remember how much I loved Bandit, and that's ok.
I hope that you will heal soon. Sorry this is so long. When I start talking about Bandit, you just can't shut me up! |