This is terrible. I...yeah, don't know what to say. I really hope for the best for you.
Since you're asking for opinions, here goes.
I believe that regardless of your faith that you must take some matters into your own hands. What is the point of living if you're going to be miserable w/ very little to no assistance? IMO, I would have to say-based on what you've told us-to terminate the pregnancy w/ your twins if possible and take care of yourself! Maybe you can try again later, or maybe you can't, life is funny that way and you already learned that hard life lesson at a young age.
Get your cancer treatment and follow doctor's orders to a T. Your husband needs you, your children need you and no doubt you want to be in their lives as much as possible and we all here on YT would LOVE to have you too! While a difficult decision for most, this is a no brainer for me. God- or whatever your faith is -has blessed you w/ 5 children so far. He threw you a curve ball w/ your special needs child and if you were healthy, then of course this wouldn't be an issue! Since it is, I think you need to take care of yourself first (take a chance, you owe it to yourself first and family second) and that way you can be the mother you've always wanted to be. Diagnosed at 19, wow. I'm 24, almost 25 and if there is any advice you'd like to give me, PLEASE do! My e-mail is:
topsredhead@yahoo.com. Goes to show you that anything can happen at any age! Take care of yourself first and foremost so that you can take care of those around you!
BEST WISHES FROM MY FURRY FAMILY TO YOURS!
~Leslie Wooldridge
topsredhead@yahoo.com