I just want to say that in a year from now when you are watching your 5 children play, you will think of the babies that God will have beside him and wonder what they would be like. You will be sad, and maybe a few tears will fall. You will wonder if you made the right descision, and you will even feel guilty for choosing your own life. When this happens take another look at those 5 kids, and wonder then what would they do if you had chose the other option. Could they laugh and play like they do now whithout their mama. If they were able to make that choice for you, they would most certainly choose you. Watch those kids, and smile. Know that God will take care of those precious twins until it is time for you to join them, and know that you are not being selfish in anyway. You are not choosing YOU over the twins, you are choosing the family you already have. You are making the right descision, and while it will hurt for a very long time, you will bring smiles to the lives you touch, your children, your husband, your mom, the rest of the family, your friends here on YT, and most likely many other people you know and will meet in the future. You are an inspiration to us all, and your life is worth saving. So go give those kids a kiss, and a smile, and they will know that their mama will be there for them when they need her. |