Im so sorry to hear of this devastating decision you were given to choose.
I lost my husband to cancer and I do know what you will be going through!
you managed to hold strong the first time, and I am assuming this is the secondary cancer that Doctors normally will not tell cancer patients, you know in your heart what you will do, and we are not here to judge only to support you. please know that I will pray for you and your family and that your treatments will prevail you back to the wonderful woman you are..
Blessings to you and your family