Oh Sweetie...I am so sorry to hear this. First and foremost you and your husband are the only ones that can make this decision. I don't know how strong your faith is, but do you have someone on a church staff that you can talk to? A Christian Counselor maybe? God is the almight healer and sometimes we don't want to hear it, but he never gives us more than we can handle. I don't know if you saw my post in the thread about children, but I also had a "suprise" child after I had my tubes tied and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt it is because it was God's plan. By you getting pregnant after your husbands V makes me think these children are His plan too. But that still doesn't answer your question I know. I often wish God would just give us a very small window to peep through to see what is in store for us, but since He didn't we just have to step out on faith.
I am not familiar with Washington state but are you anywhere near Centralia, WA. I have a cousin there that has 13 (yes I said 13) children and I think it might could help you to talk to them. Please pm me if you would like for me to put you in touch with them.
Louise |