Thanks Villette. I'm going with the thought that "what doesn't kill ya makes ya stronger idea", but it is sometimes harder to believe than other times. I think Moose and I were meant to find each other last year, she has been little guardian. She has even tried to make Lil Bear feel better about missing mom. I have focused a lot to training Moose and making clothes for her and Lil Bear.
Muffie's Mom has also been so good to me and has given me so much support and info and just an ear (rather eye) to write to
Michelle