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Originally Posted by yorkietalkjilly

Taylor, if you are that near the edge, you belong under care, where you can get some personal, intensified help, medication, counseling. My mom suffered from mental illness, had to be hospitalized for over 2 months in an institution with intense treatment, counseling, even shock therapy. She suffered greatly from her mental illness and I had to quit my first job to stay home and care for my 6 year old brother when I was just 18 as my father had to work at his business, his own company. So I ran the house, cared for Tim and his first year of school, kept up with mother on the phone, talked with her doctors about her treatments, progress, taking Tim to visit her when we could, cook the meals and do the shopping. Daddy worked 16 hour days, came home too tired to even eat.

When she came home, she just sat for two weeks barely talking and then slowly began to return somewhat to herself. Daddy was working very hard to make his new business prosperous as it was so new so much of mom's care was up to me, such as keeping up with her meds, getting her to her psychiatrist appts., helping her in any way she needed, even when she regressed. We eventually got through it, she was markedly better, could relax, wasn't nearly so fearful, nervous, so obsessed with one thing or the other that she couldn't sleep but it took about two years for her to become mom again. And she stayed mom, my mom, for the rest of her life after her intense treatment program, good counseling, proper medication and a lot of love on all our parts.

Daddy's business did great, he hired more people, expanded and he was so happy to be able to buy and build my mom a new home in the neighborhood of her choosing, move her and new furniture she picked out, into her dream house and she was so happy, so different than those last bad years before her treatment. Get yourself real help before it's too late. You are worth it, girl! You matter to one and all, to me. We're in your corner. We may disagree on things sometimes but I want you to get yourself help rather than going out and about un-masked if you feel suicidal. But you have to make the first move to reach out for help.

When I had just turned 13 I was hospitalized for a weekend. Sadly when I was diagnosed at 8 there wasn’t a big thing of treating children so nothing really started until I was 13. My grandmother has significant mental illness and had been hospitalized at least once when she was much younger and I think before my mother was born. My grandmother refuses to get help so I’m having to live with dealing with my own mental illness but try to live dealing with her extreme depression and it’s hard. I have messaged my therapist with hopes of restarting, she has her own office by herself and has started a sanitizing system. My other doctors right now are ok doing telephone and virtual appointments for now.