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Originally Posted by amberw725  Thank you all so much for your kind words.
I'm struggling so badly. I know it's important to grieve, but man I hate being sad and crying. My heart literally aches. All the little things I took for granted (like him being outside the bathroom door when I got out of the shower) are the things I miss so much now.
I have been talking to him here and there. Telling him all the things I loved about him and how I would miss him so much. I want him to know that I only took him to the hospital so he could get better, and that I had every intention on bringing him back home. I hope he doesn't feel like I left him.
I'm just so so so sad and feel so lonely without him near me.
I keep crying and I can't stop the tears from flowing.
This is SO hard. Thank you guys for letting me vent. |
I am SO sorry.....I wish I had a way to help you feel better; but, I know it is something that just takes time. (time, that awful four letter word)
I believe they know.....I am SURE he knew he was there because you wanted to make him better. You went to see him and he knew. He was a very loved pup. No way did he think you deserted him.. As I said previously, I have had a couple send messages to me..subtle but obvious things. I don't know if they all can do that ... I just know they are there somewhere...and I know he knows how much you loved him.
As much as it hurts, you need to cry...you really need to allow yourself to grieve. Know that we are all thinking of you. I am praying for you nightly .. for peace to come to you.