[amberw725]

Thank you all so much for your kind words.
I'm struggling so badly. I know it's important to grieve, but man I hate being sad and crying. My heart literally aches. All the little things I took for granted (like him being outside the bathroom door when I got out of the shower) are the things I miss so much now.
I have been talking to him here and there. Telling him all the things I loved about him and how I would miss him so much. I want him to know that I only took him to the hospital so he could get better, and that I had every intention on bringing him back home. I hope he doesn't feel like I left him.
I'm just so so so sad and feel so lonely without him near me.
I keep crying and I can't stop the tears from flowing.
This is SO hard. Thank you guys for letting me vent.