 I don't know how to do this!
Somebody, please tell me I'm not crazy! My baby girl died Wednesday morning and I couldn't save her. I tried CPR for 30 minutes and it didn't help. (I think she had a seizure.) I think about her all the time. I cry at every little thing. I close my eyes and I see her. I open my eyes and I wish she were there. I go to work with swollen eyes. I see her favorite toys all over the house. I can't bear to go outside where I found her, in the bathroom where my last efforts were to revive her, in her bed where she sleeps with her sister, who can't understand why she can't find her! I can't even get in my car to come home from work, knowing that she will not be there, all 3.5 lbs of her. My baby girl, Ally, Dec 31, 2008 - Sep 13, 2017. I don't know how to do this mourning thing! Too difficult! She was my empty-nest baby and I love her dearly. God gave her wings, but I my heart truly was not ready to let her go. How do I make the hurt go away???? |