[matese]

I have had 4 precious babies leave me and it doesn't get easier. I know your pain. We know we love our babies deeply, but never realize the depth of that love until we love them. My last girl was 17 yo, she had dementia for a couple of years, was 99% blind and deaf, she also slept most of the time. She ate well and would play with me although it was a diff. style of playing because she could neither see or hear. Then one day she wouldn't eat, I hand feed her anything and everything I knew she LOVED, she would eat a wee amount. After 36 hours without eating a full amount of food off we went to the vet. Cut to the chase because this is still very hard on me, 7 days in vet hospital I was told I had to say good bye to my girl. I have had to put several girls down and none of them was an easy thing to do, but my Matese was extra special to me. Letting her go was overwhelming the pain in my heart was unbearable, I always knew I loved her deeply but when she was gone is when I realized how deeply I loved her. I swore no more dogs, I just could not go through that pain again. However, not planned or expected 6 weeks after having to let my girl go my vet gifted me with a little boy, 2.5 yo. We are a team for 3 years now.He has filled that empty spot in my heart. I tell you this because I went through what you are going through. I saw my girl getting older although she was healthy I knew a day would come. I would hold her close and cry and ask god to please not take her from me, she was 14 yo at this time, I was blessed to have her another 3 years. I would not consider a puppy, I wanted to devote all my attention to my senior girl. My heart is just breaking for you, the possibility of losing two is just to overwhelming. Love them everyday, cuddle them everyday as everyday is a gift to you. I will not advise getting a puppy as my personal opinion is, it is not fair to your seniors, they need all your love and attention. Do not think that you can never love another baby, that is what I thought and found that was no so, I love my lil boy, not the same way that I did my special girl, but I do LOVE this lil guy. I wish there were words I could say that would help ease this painful time in your life. I will keep you and your babies in my prayers (((hugs)))