 To those that have lost...
To those that have babies that have crossed rainbows bridge I need a shoulder...We are coming up on a year the end of this month that Jingle passed. I had a horrible time with it, did not leave the house for a week. It has been the toughest thing I have experienced, death is not new to me I have lost many people and frankly animals that I have loved dearly, but when I lost Jingle my world spiraled. We had a very tight bond, he was my baby.
Since getting Presley some weeks after Jingle passed he truly helped with Holly and my pain and grief. Presley and I have a tight bond as well, not the same as what Jingle and I shared but just as special. When Jingle first passed many times I would have swore I saw him out of the corner of my eye, heard his nails clicking the floor, and generally felt his presence, I contributed this to the grief I was overwhelmed with. There has been times that I would get the same feelings through this past year, not all the time just occasionally. For the past week it has been weighing on me hard that it has almost been a year, I have been melancholy and just not myself and I swear I have felt his presence strong. I could have sworn I seen him out of the corner of my eye today doing my hair in the bathroom. Jingle would sit in the bathroom and patiently would wait for me to get finished with shower, make-up, hair, it didn't matter he just wanted to be in there with me. When I turned my head of course nothing was there today, am I the only one this happens to? Have others had the same feelings? A year later it is still tough, I still miss him like crazy, and I will always love him with everything I got.
I really don't mean to sound whiny and hope I am not coming across like that. I am so very blessed to have had him as mine and I am so very blessed to have Presley as I do not know what I would do without that little fuzzy face! Thank you all for letting me lend your ears and shoulders, and I thank God that I know one day I will see his precious face again! |