My sweet sweet darling Ziggy went with the angels this AM..my heart aches.He was barely breathing when I took him to the vet..his lil tiny body was so worn ..his screams will forever ring in my heart..I had to let him go, I just had to..I could not let his suffering go on..I will forever be grateful to have had him and would do it all over again knowing this would happen because this beautiful lil guy I named Ziggy opened up a different kind of love in my heart I never knew I had. I thank you all for all your help, prayers & encouragement..I did contact the breeder and she is willing to have the other puppy checked out by a vet and have him issue a certificate of health. I know this can be faked but the vet she is talking about is not far from here and I would be able to verify.I told her that it had to wait till next week..I need time to grief my lil angel..he will always be special to me..I am grateful for every moment I got to share with him and for the opertunity to give him my love..all this said..I cannot ignore these flashes of guilt that keep coming over me and I best vent it now...when I woke up this morning with my alarm "still" going..noticing its been going for 2 hours past his feeding time..I always hear my alarm 1st round (its set to go of every 5 min indefinately)..I JUST DID NOT HEAR IT..( husband was @ work) I know this was out of sheer exhaustion on my part..but cant escape the guilt...I didnt mean to do this to him.. I have never been so sorry in my life..I know in time I will be ok but for now I have to feel and receive its lesson..bless you all ..will update u what we decide about other puppy .in this moment I cant even imagine about wanting another
