As I read your post, all I wanted to do was give you a hug. I know what you are going through, and it is so so hard. I recently had to make the same decision and felt so guilty. After many months of medical treatments, surgery etc..we had come to the end of medical intervention. I held my little guy in my arms and knew that my keeping him alive any longer was for me. The kind and loving choice was to let him go to the Rainbow Bridge with me holding him telling him I loved him, and it was ok. My vets were truly wonderful. They gave me all the time I needed to hold him and talk to him…I loved him so much that I didn't want him to suffer, knowing there was no chance of recovery any way I looked, it was the most loving act I could ever do for him. He was a spunky little man, who loved his walks and playing and eating. He wasn't enjoying any of those things anymore. I still cry over him, but I am sure it was the most loving thing I could do for him. My heart goes out to you, but to me you loved your little one enough to let him have a peaceful, loving goodbye. The fact that you were afraid of him being alone was so touching. Huge hug and deepest sympathy to you. |