I hope that you had a wonderful birthday! Even though I know it was a hard day, I hope you were able to enjoy it.
And congratulations on your baby Toby! I understand not wanting to get another little girl, and it sounds as though he is fitting in perfectly! I know the feeling of being worried after an accident -- to this day I am still overly protective (somewhat paranoid) and I worry so much. I find myself checking and double checking my girls all the time. I guess its just part of being a furmom though LOL. When we adopted our Yorkie, Oli, I constantly called her October. And sometimes, I still slip up. They remind me of one another.
Don't feel bad for feeling better! You deserve to smile again and be happy! I know that Marley would also want you to be doing well. I am so glad to hear that you are doing better. Every day you'll continue to get better and it will be a little easier. Hugs to you!!!