[matese]

Elsa so sorry for the loss of your lil April. I had to put my sweet lil girl down this past Oct. 2013. I know the pain you are going through. I have lost to many but she was the last of my brood and was 16 y/o. All I was doing was crying, the house felt so empty, I have not been with out a baby for 35 + years. This last girl Matese was gotten as a companion for my other baby. In 1996 I had 3 babies, all females, in Feb. 96 I lost one she was 13 y/o, the 2 remaining had each other although you could tell they missed their sister, but they still has each other, 6 months later the 2nd older one passed away in the house, age 10 y/o, the last one was the baby of the 3, now she was alone, she was pining away for her lost sister, was not eating, not playful, not so happy to see me when I would come home from work. I gave her 6 months to adjust, she didn't, so in 1997 I got my beautiful Matese to keep her company. It was an immediate bond, my Schnae adored Matese so much. Schnae had to be put down in 2005 age 13 y/o. Being they were extra, extra close Matese took it very hard, I was now not in a position to get her a companion as my work kept me out of the house 15 to 16 hours a day. I could could not raise a puppy being gone so many hours. It took Matese 9 months to adjust and she just got closer to me. So loosing this lil girl for me was very over whelming. I swore no more dogs, loosing them is too painful, I can't do it anymore. As it turned out 6 weeks after having to put my sweet girl down I did adopt a 2 1//2 y/o yorkie male all unplanned and a surprise. He rescued me, I needed him, he helped me cope with the loss of my lil girl. You need to grieve, cry, talk. They say in time the pain lessons, I don't know for me how that would have worked out. I have a memorial of my Matese, and I still cry for her 8 months later, but then my lil Cody boy will jump at me and give me lil yorkie kisses, and puts that smile back on my face and eases the pain in my heart. All of us on YT have lost a beloved baby, we know the pain you are in and we are all here to help you get through this. I know to write about your lil April is painful, I cannot write, or even talk about my Matese without crying. But we are all here for you. I will keep you in my prayers to help you stay strong to be able to get past this. Give your other baby lots of love and extra attention for she is also grieving and missing her lil sister.