It's good to tell the story - helps to share with others and talk about what happened. It's just heartbreaking to read about how you lost her but I doubt she was totally well only two days before she passed. With an old dog behaving as Molly was and no clear diagnosis or treatment plan by your vet and the dog in distress with alarming symptoms, what else could you do but try to get her out of her misery? Perhaps she had a stoke with her systems behaving so oddly there at the last.
In any event, you made the decision based on your vet's advice and if you trusted them, what more can a loving dog-owner do? Who would take an alarmingly ill/suffering dog from one vet clinic, away from life support, and strike out in the car to the nearest Vet ER hoping somehow they could successfully diagnose and treat her at that hour w/out thinking you may well be prolonging her agony? You did your best to try to relieve her awful suffering and acted in the knowledge and circumstances of the moment, thinking of her misery. Don't second guess yourself now - it will not help at all and will only prolong your own suffering and grief.
__________________  Jeanie and Tibbe One must do the best one can. You may get some marks for a very imperfect answer: you will certainly get none for leaving the question alone. C. S. Lewis |