Another clean dinner to check off of my calendar. The toughest part is I do so good, make a yummy healthy dinner and eat it slowly. then tony comes home from work and eats bacon mashed potatoes and burgers, etc...and I want to eat all over again. But I try to not be in the room while he eats.
The number on the scale keeps going down but I dont physically see a difference in my body yet. I want it so bad. I have always had a huge block in my mind where I'm unable to picture me, thin. Like I must be incapable of being small..because I'm so big right now! I cant remember what I looked like at my best, which was probably 11th grade when I was still on a dance team, taking jazz, and in show choir. Even then I was probably 150. I'd kill to get back to that. Anyways...doing some toning stuff with weights tonight and then calling it a night..my bed is calling to.me big time. |