The reason I had even responded in this thread was to offer some suggestions to try and help. For the first 2 years after the spinal cord surgery, that destroyed who I used to be, I just wanted to die every day I woke up. It took that long o start coming out of the anger of what was done to me. I still talk to a therapist along with my other drs, every month so I can live as much of my life as I can. I even wrote an annonymous blog for a long time after my spinal cord damage to help me cope.
If you would like to know more about what my condition is and how I ended up here like this today, here is a link to my blog.
LIVING LIFE WITH CES AFTER FAILED TARLOV SURGERY: May 2010 , I have never shared this before with anyone but my husband and my daughter, and the reason I am sharing it now, is so you sportschick, can see why I am trying to help you with suggestions, and how much worse life can truly be. I live this life and know, that Gizmo has given me so much happiness that I would only ever want to the same for him. Believe me, with my life the way it is, you appreciate happiness much much more.
My blog is a very long read if you start from the beginning dates on the left column, but maybe you will get an idea of why I feel it so important to have emergency plans in place, even if its just for a break, or something worse. I live an unexpected life where I never will know what will happen next. I feel Gizmo was sent to me by fate and I treasure him every day.