I know how you feel. It has been 3 weeks since my Tootsie left this world. She was 11 and very healthy, she could have lived to be 19 or 20. I am still crying and the void is still there. I felt like I will never be normal again, the devastation then the blame and anger and the guilt of not doing the right thing at the right time. But every day it gets a bit better, the memories of the last few hours are replaced by our life and fun together. I talk to her and feel she is around. It will get better i promise, slowly but it will. Do not deny yourself the grief, this is natural. Hope those hard times pass and the memory of having her will always remain and put a smile on your face replacing the tears. |