[Yorkie4luv]

I'm so sorry about your little one, I myself am nursing two older yorkies with both with kidney failure and one has enlarged heart too. So I will eventually have to make the same decision your did with euthanasia. I just want you to know that I suffer from PTSD and I seek treatment for it and it has changed my life greatly. One of the things that really helps is journaling. Just get a tablet or journal and keep it close. When ever you have thought or feelings about gidget just start to write. It doesn't have to make sense, it doesn't have to be in complete sentences. (ie, I miss you terribly, I feel guilt, etc.)
By writing it down you will get it out of your brain and be able to deal with all these emotions better. I hope this helps! I'm sending you and gidget a prayer.