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Originally Posted by ytsirk27 10.5 years. LOTS of ups and downs. He is happy...that's not an issue. It's me..my heart isnt here. The reason why I havent left is because of the kids, the thought that I cant take care of us (which i know ican) and nobody else will ever want me... Our history is sooooo messed up and just started getting decent about 3 yrs ago..but its still not here......does anybody undertand what I mean??  He also makes me feel like the worst mom in the world when i tell him we need a break...  |
I totaly understand... First off you are not the worst mom in the world, secondly, he will not know that something is wrong untill you tell him. TELL HIM that your heart is not there and then try to work on it together. It feels good to get it out. Have the kids stay over at a friends house or with family and you and your husband have a night at home alone and talk it out, hold nothing back. You are the only one who knows what you want and need and unless you tell him, he will not know what you need from him.