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Originally Posted by ytsirk27 10.5 years. LOTS of ups and downs. He is happy...that's not an issue. It's me..my heart isnt here. The reason why I havent left is because of the kids, the thought that I cant take care of us (which i know ican) and nobody else will ever want me... Our history is sooooo messed up and just started getting decent about 3 yrs ago..but its still not here......does anybody undertand what I mean??  He also makes me feel like the worst mom in the world when i tell him we need a break... |
Ok, he's happy because YOU have kept him happy all these years ? Forgetting about yourself and you own life ? Giving up your own life for your husband and kids ? Sounds like your selfesteem is way down and finally you wont stand for it anymore.
I dont know the history and the situation, but dont let anybody tell you that your a bad mom if you know in your heart that you have done and are doing all you can to keep your family on a roll.
I think i understand what you mean, you are tired and fed up of all the crap you have put up with. You need to make yourself feel pretty and worth it, simply because you are. Dont let anyone else tell you differently.