My little Angel passed away I held her and loved her until she took her last breath.
Her beautiful mother is broken hearted and just does not understand where she has gone. I laid her next to her and let her kiss and lick her. She went with us to bury her and stood beside her grave. She keeps looking for her, oh my heart breaks just watching her. I know I let her down, I thought I was prepared for anything to go wrong especially where we live so far away from the larger cities.
What I didn't tell you was that this was my Jerzee's third and last litter. I had her with me in SLC when she went into labor on Dec 30. I had taken everything with me to the motel and was well prepared to deliver these babies. She had the first puppy (this little angel) and all was well, she was suckling immediately. The next puppy just would not come, we waited and then took her to emergency care. The second puppy was turned and appeared to be folded it was stopping the others from coming. The X-rays showed four puppies to be born in addition to the one I already delivered. They decided it was time to do a C Section and the puppy blocking the way had been dead for a day or two and was born with its little intestines on the outside. The other three were born alive but two of them had birth defects bad had to be put down. The fifth was a boy and was doing well but by the time we were taken back they were losing him, thy just could not keep him breathing even though he had a very strong heart beat.
I was devastated to say the least, I had anxiously been awaited the delivery of these babies. I was grateful to have my Jerzee alive and doing well and I felt blessed to have saved at least one. My heart was broken for the babies that we lost and totally sick about the defects they had. My local vet told me it sounded like a virus in the mom or possibly toxins had caused these problems.
We spayed my Jerzee that night and I had spayed my other momma the summer before. We were so lucky and blessed to have enjoyed the puppies throughout the years and I am going to miss loving a kissing and watching those babies grow.
God Bless all of you who are on this site to help others by sharing your wisdom and love.
RIP my little Angel and when you cross that rainbow bridge you will see your brother and sisters waiting there for you. Please give them my love and tell them how beautiful their mommy, Jerzee is. |