If you were to leave and go back home, can't you move back with your folks until you can get on your feet?
You shouldn't be playing housewife. You should be going out and having fun and making tons of friends (for life). You're 20...your life shouldn't be over yet. And, TBH, when you say you dated...you dated in HS right?
And I agree, it really worries me that you keep saying that you gave up your life for him. If you believe this, it's only going to harbor deep, deep resentment. You have to make yourself happy. Your life should always come first. You have your life and he has his and you share a portion of those lives together. It seems to me that he IS your life and that's not healthy.
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