[newton]

Florabug, I still see my baby looking at me from on the vets table on the day I last saw him. It tears my heart out. It seems like just yesterday he was here and now he is not. I hate that now he has only become just a memory. Its so hard losing someone you love so much. Maybe you can do something special to remember him like releasing some balloons. My husband and I bought a tree on our local library lawn and decorated it in my dog's memory. I'm glad I did it as I felt I was still doing something for him. I have a locket of his hair and his foot print too. I am waiting on his ashes to come back from the vet so he will be back in the house. I do know how you feel and I'm sorry there is such a hole in your heart right now. I feel like my baby has given me a few signs that he's still with me. One day I took my other baby, nelly, newtons partner in crime, on our walk like all three of us used to do. On the path I looked down to see a Black and Tan wooly bugger, the same colors as my Newt. I think it was a sign from him saying he was out romping around on the path too. I don't know why but, just a feeling. Then when I was putting together picture of him for the Tree, his favorite holiday commercial came on. The Hershey Kiss one where the bells ring? He loved that commercial and would run to the tv from any room in the house when he heard it. He'd howl and sing with it! Such a personality! They all have there own little personalities. Try to remember the good times and memories. Remind yourself you did all you could and he was so so loved. He knew it too! <3