I took my sheltie to the vet 3 times to put him to sleep before I was finally able to do it. Deep down I knew it was the best thing to do for him, but I was selfish and couldn't imagine being w/o him. They lightly sedated him before putting him to sleep...and the old pup came out, I was able to see him as he had not been for a long time...no discomfort and happy w/tail wagging and loving all over me. I am thankful I got to see him like that again, but I really feel bad that I prolonged the inevitable and put him through some very bad days. It was actually a relief once it was done and I think you will likely experience the same. You can then step back and appreciate the wonderful friend that you had w/o just seeing how they have become.
I hope any of that makes any sense, my heart does go out to you... |