 Still having a rough time
Two weeks ago today I woke up to my little Ace being sick but stable. We thought it was just a little bout of nasueau which he sometimes got. I wish I could go back and immedeilty take him to the ER vet, to get operated on for the obstruction he had. I keep thinking if only sooner had he been operated on would he have survived? Maybe his body would have been healthier and he wouldn't have developed sepsis and later fluid in his lungs. My husband says I need to stop beating myself up over this, but how when I was responsible for him? He looked to me to take care of him and in return he took care of me. I will forever feel like I failed Ace and always think to myself, had I acted sooner maybe he'd still be here.
Every morning I wake up and feel so empty and sad. Yes, I continue with my daily routine as best as I can, but it's so sad. I lost the most innocent, best thing in my life. I miss you baby Ace, and I love you forever! |