[Mueyinter]

The past month or so hasn't been the best on me emotionally. I've been so stressed out that even my plans/goals for healthy eating has gone down the drain. Lately I've just been feeling so emotionally drained.

Okay, let's back up to how all this came about. My boyfriend of 6 years officially proposed to me this past November 19th, 2005. I've never been happier. I was so happy when I told my parents. And started to actively plan out my wedding details. One day my mother came up to me and asked if I was inviting my father to my wedding. (They got a divorce about 5 years ago) And of course I'm going to invite him, he's my father after all. And it's not like he's passed away, and he lives 5mins away from me. My mom proceeded to tell me that she's not going to be attending my wedding if I'm inviting my father. Therefore I have to choose who I's rather have ay my wedding. OMG! Are you frickin serious lady?! I said, "No. I'm not choosing. You are both my parents and I want you BOTH there. I'll seat you guys on different sides of the reception hall. You don't even have to look at each other." But that wasn't enough for her. She proceeded to tell me that I was selfish and not taking her feelings into consideration. And she said I obviously love my father more b/c I'm inviting him. Despite that when I was younger he was a bad father to me. *sigh* I'm so sick and tired of this. I still live with my mom so she asks me almost every day when I see her about the wedding. And comments about how "I've chosen already who I want to be at the wedding. And how she won't be there." She says she'll probably take a vacation to Vegas or something since she's not needed etc,. I try to tell her that I DO want her there. She is my mom & I do love her. But I can't believe she's doing this to me.

So here's the reason I haven't been actively post on the boards, or hopping to with my healthy liefstyle weightloss plan. I've just been so drained. I just wanna crawl into a hole & sleep all day. My only joys are my furbabies who know that I'm not feeling well and come snuggle me and urge me to play. And seeing my fiance on the weekends.