[missingmycosmo]

Hello, I am new to this site but thought it might help to share my story and see if anyone out there has been through what I am dealing with...

My family and I had our Yorkie for almost 10 years. We got him from a local breeder/pet store and loved and spoiled him from the day we got him. We replaced his ACL, and both kneecaps, paid for countless vet dehydration visits etc. For the past year or so he started peeing everywhere and having accidents, which we ignored and cleaned up. Alot! He received regular vet visits, check ups, grooming etc.

Then this past weekend, he continued throwing up alot and then wheezing. We took him in immediately and our vet said we needed to get him to the emergency vet for an EKG/Sonogram. Once there, the hooked my little baby up to some oxygen and began procedures. The EKG revealed that my baby had a massive heart tumor, a broken valve and water in his lungs...they said they would treat him for a heart condition and we could take him home once they balanced his fluids and got him out of heart failure and his breathing normalized...that never happened. He had a very poor response to the heart meds and the lasik treatments and so I was forced to make the hardest decision of my life...We decided to end his pain at the suggestion of 3 different veterinarians. When they brought him in with his oxygen tank being wheeled behind him I just knew this was the best for him. I held him in my arms and kissed him until the very end, told him how much I loved him and would miss him. My baby boy, Cosmo.

I cant believe the lonliness I'm feeling and how broken my heart is. My house is so quiet when he used to greet me everyday, tail wagging and giving me kisses. I've heard people say that the best therapy is to get another dog but I don't want to disrespect his memory. He was a little dog with a BIG personality. I miss him so much and it's only been one day. How do you ever get over this??