[yorkietalkjilly]

What you are going through is one of the most painful & stressful things a human can go through - the loss of a loved one and beloved family member. You will go through many phases over the next weeks and find yourself a mess at times but it's all to be expected, even though "it's just as dog"(as so many refer to them). My close friend who is a very wise person told me about losing a dog that it's not who it is in your life as much as what that person or pet meant to your life that makes some losses so much more painful than others, never mind the species. I was telling him that losing my little Yorkie actually hurt worse than when my aunt died and I didn't understand why I was suffering so much more over losing my dog. I felt so guilty! But what he said made sense as Scotty(my first Yorkie) was my constant companion and my best friend and my child and my watch dog and my entertainment & on & on and we spent almost every moment together except for the times I couldn't take him with me. It dawned on me why I was in such pain. Scotty had totally filled my life and I only saw my aunt a few times a year and never lived with or spent very much time with her. I realized then how powerful a love one could have for a tiny dog one lives with vs. a family member one may not have a strong relationship with. So grieve as much as you need and know that there are many people everywhere that understand your deep, deep hurt. One day when enough time has passed and the pain begins to lessen some, wonderful memories will begin to take over the bad things and your healing will begin. I hope a time will come when you can know another such wonderful relationship as you had with little Raven. He would want you to be that happy again. R.I.P., Little One. ♥