Thanks so much everyone! I'm sorry, I didn't get online at all yesterday.
My grandparents are the only stable secure thing in my/our ever changing lives. They've had the same house, same address, same phone number, since I was a baby. When all their kids had kids and got divorced, we always could go to my grandparents and they would be there. We all took turns living with them when we were growing up, and they were always soooo actively involved with all their grand kids. They are the corner stones of our lives.
My grandmother has a tumor in her colon that has completely blocked it. Nothing is getting through. It grew bigger in just 3 weeks. She is going to die of starvation and dehydration before the actual cancer is critical. That is the hardest part. She does not even know she is dying. She has dementia, but not terrible yet, she knows who everyone is, and she has conversations with everyone like everything is ok. She knows she's sick. She's hungry too. She is MAD that we won't feed her. She'll be feisty until the end.
Thats my grammy! She told us yesterday that we are starving her to death! Little does she actually know that is what is literally happening. It makes us SO mad that it has to be this way!!!
They gave her morphine last night, supposedly once that first dose is done, it will be down hill very quickly. They will keep her on morphine until her body shuts down. It will only be a matter of days to a week.
Please say a prayer for my family. I really appreciate all the thoughts & prayers.