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Originally Posted by gracielove  Just reading your posts brings back my own memories of loss. It is going to be a difficult couple of weeks but remember that you cannot linger in the past. You cannot change the past. Don't beat yourself up or think about what you should have done differently. It's the past now and you cannot change it no matter how badly you feel about it.
She is not suffering now and although this was sudden I'm sure you gave her a very good life and she appreciated every second of it. I think she would be sad if she knew how awful you are feeling now. You have to have time to mourn your loss. Just don't beat yourself up about this. Sometimes circumstances seem to line up against us and we have no control over them. We all have to keep moving forward or we will be stuck in a pit of regret and despair. I can start to cry just by looking at pictures of my past pets but I can't let myself stay there. Our pets are so smart in that they live for today. Your other pets must be a great comfort to you. I'm glad you have a supportive husband there for you,too.
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Thank you for your suggestions and kind words. I'm trying as hard as I can to move forward and keep it together, but failing miserably. My heart literally hurts so bad, I'm just sick. Watching Elijah sit in front of her kennel everyday waiting for her to come back is hell. Gracie tries to distract him and get him movin, but he's not into it, his heart is just not into it. We rescued Dottie from a kill shelter when she was 2 years old, we actually went to see a boxer, but by the grace of God, we came home with Dottie. She only had 15 more minutes left when we got there, they were going to euthanize her. She was the most loyal, faithful and loving daughter in the world to me and my heart just hurts so badly. The last years I've had with her have been the best years of my life. I'm not me without her and nothing in this world is ever gonna fill this huge hole that's in my heart....