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Marilyn, I can empathize with you completely. I had a wonderful cat named Simone for 7 years. She helped me through the toughest time in my life, and was a wonderful companion. She wasn't perfect - had a weepy eye and hip and leg problems, so she walked with a wobble. But she was the perfect friend for me. I wanted to keep her safe so she was indoor only (we live in an area where there are coyotes, hawks, racoons, etc). Sadly, last spring she managed to escape out of the house undetected. We didn't know she was missing until the next morning. We never saw her again even though we searched and searched. I'm starting to cry now just thinking about it. I still cry when I look at her picture. She deserves to be in heaven, and I'm sure that's where she is, but it was so hard to lose her so suddenly. I cried every day until we found Ozzy. We had him less than three weeks after Simone disappeared because I so missed giving love and I was so, so sad, just as you describe yourself. Since we found Oz, I smile every day and laugh out loud most days. Yes, I still miss Simone. She will always be with me. But having a pup to love and spoil has helped make life seem more "normal" and makes me feel good. I hope that time and prayer will help you. I know it's too soon right now, but when you're ready, I'm sure you'll give another puppy as wonderful a life as you gave Elly May.