[sganow]

The 2 we lost were a little bit older. Misty was 12 and couldn't use her back legs anymore. She couldn't stand, was losing control of her bladder, and was crying and miserable. She had hip surgery at the university in Ames, IA and the vets there told us we would be lucky if she made it to 6-8 yrs old. Meadow had cancer and battled that for awhile. It finally overtook her. That was the hardest one of all. They are both sorely missed, and yes we have regrets every day thinking we could have done more for them. We still get a little misty-eyed when we think of them.

Please take care of yourself! I know the pain you are going through, but don't let it consume you. You gave Elly May the gift of love, and she gave the same to you. Hold her memories and love dear to your heart. The grief we feel when losing one of our loved ones is very powerful. You have friends here and don't feel you cannot contact people for support. When you are ready, don't be afraid to let another baby into your heart. It won't be replacing Elly May, but rather a new baby to love and to love you back. I honestly believe Elly May will help guide you to your new baby when you are ready. You have a lot of love to give. Open your heart. It will help. It did for us anyway. I wish you well and hope you take everyone's advice and take good care of yourself. That's most important right now. Please keep in touch and let us all know how you're doing.