my heart really breaks for you in your sudden loss of your sweet benson. a little over a year ago my sweet angel nika became very sick very fast and her labs were completely off the charts too. she was fine one minute, and 30 some hours later, she was gone. she was thought to have necrotizing pancreatitis. my almost 11 year old yorkie zowi (was nika's mother) was diagnosed with cushing's this past june. i often wonder if my baby girl nika had it too and it was never noticed.... the dr's did say she probably had an underlying condition... i understand the pain of losing a sweet little angel, it is almost unbearable. since the passing of my nika, i do feel her presence around me always too. she is living on in my heart and in my thoughts, and always will. i'm sure at some point, you will be ready to have another little love find their own special place in your heart, and benson will always have his own place there too. wanted to share one of my favorite pet loss poems with you. it did help me to cope somewhat. you will be in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. i am truly sorry for your loss of benson.
I Haven’t Left At All
I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh.
But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow
You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know;
I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall
I want to help you understand I haven’t left at all.
On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief
I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief.
When you take our walking path I’ve seen you turn around
Because I know you surely heard my paws upon the ground.
At night while you are sleeping I snuggle at your side
You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie.
You said it’s just your heart playing tricks upon your mind
But rest assured I’m really there, my spirit’s left behind.
I know your heart is hurting; it’s like an open sore
You think my life has ended and you won’t see me anymore.
But for those of us bound tight by love, death is not the curtain call;
It’s really the eternal beginning that waits for us all
So as you live your life I patiently await
For us to be together when you pass through Heaven’s gate |