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Originally Posted by Britster  Girl, if you ever need to talk, I am here. I can't imagine losing my dad, I am so close to him. But I did lose my little brother, who I was super close to, he was 5 when he died and I often have days where I am just sooo blah. I can't stop thinking about him, I can't sleep, I just get in a funk some times and I won't even know why until I suddenly realize I either see something that reminds me of Connor, or it's day significant to him, etc. He died in June and his birthday was in July so those two months I'm generally really down.
On those days, I have to get myself out and about. I can't just sit at home as much as I want to. I take advantage of having a dog and usually just take him to the dog park, or go for a long walk, anything to get my mind off the pain. Though I will say, some days I almost "enjoy" just letting out a good cry. I hold stuff in a lot so I have a few nights a year where I just cry... and let it all out... and it does help.
Oh and whoever says time heals all wounds never has experienced such a painful loss, IMO. Sure, it may EASE up over time... but time, IMO, does not heal anything. You really just learn to live with it. I've come to realize dying is a part of life but it sure doesn't make it any easier.
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LoL You are so funny, your avatar made me smile! I love Tom Hanks too! All I can say to you is keep your Father close, never take that love for granted! I know you talk about your Father like I did mine, I can tell you have a very close realtionship. ((hugs)) to you as well. I know you lost a brother, I lost My Grandparents on my Mom's side, My Dad and my Grandpa ( Dad's side) all less than a year it was so hard... Loosing my Dad was the worse feeling Brit. A Daughter always needs their Dad, you feel lost without them. I have one brother and I love him to death. I cant imaging the pain you are in. I am so sorry you were delt with that. Im sure your brother is above you as your Angel. I know you just posted a thread a little bit ago about missing him. ((hugs)) I am here for you as well! I know it helps talking to people who have lost people.. So dont hesitate to Pm me!
I think the days you see something that reminds you of him, that means he is around you. I really do. I hold a lot in too, I do the same thing. I will be fine for half of the year, and then WHAMO I will just break down somewhere!! It probably isnt what you should do, but Oh well.
I agree with its something that we have to live with. Its not that we can deal with it, its that we have to! I guess we all have eachother for the times we are down. All the people in this thread have really helped me! We should have a in memory for people on here!!