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Originally Posted by jmdt  I lost my dad 4 years ago this past July. No one knows the special bond that a father has with his daughter and visa versa. Not unless you are one. The pain is immeasurable. I think of him all the time. You know what I do is whenever I see a butterfly I think it's him flying by me. I know it's weird but the day he died I bought a butterfly bush and it attracts tons of butterflies. It is very hard to live without him. He truly was everything to me. Just never, ever forget those special times you had with him. I speak of him often to my kids, and we laugh. I get down every now and then and cry, and it's ok to cry. It is a very deep sorrow that never, ever will go away. My daddy lives in my heart and I just know we will be together again. What gets me through is that I know he would be sad if he knew I was miserable or sad. I just keep saying, "I'm ok", I would never want to make him sad. He is with my mom and they have eachother, so I feel better knowing they are not alone.
I wish you well and I am truly sorry about your dads passing. Keep your chin up and continue to make him proud.  |
I lost my Dad July 16 2002, but before that I lost my Grandparents (Mom's parents) then a little after my Dad passed I lost my Grandpa on my Dad's side. I lost all of them in less than a year.
I am sorry for your loss ((hugs)). I know, nobody understands the close bond. My Dad and I were so close. I think that is beautiful about the butterfiles... I think we just have to hold on to anything that reminds us of them. I use to lay on my Dad's chest when I was young ( @ 13-15ish) I would listen to his heart beat.. The other day out of nowhere I was laying on my DH ( I hardly do esp on his chest) I was laying on his chest and all of a sudden I heard his heart beat, I swear I thought I was laying on my Dad! It freaked me out and I got up, DH was kinda startled and was like what is wrong... I told him LoL I kinda creeped him out a little, but he understood. It was really strange bc I never have layed on DH, I mean we snuggle and stuff but never once layed on his chest like I use to do with my Dad and at the time I was doing it I didnt realize it!
My Mom will sometimes smile at my Brother or myself and will tell us that we remind her of our Dad. They just had celebrated their 25th anniversary. They were so in love, and never faught. I had such a wonderful childhood, The best parents I could have asked for. My Dad was an amazing Father and an amazing person in general. Ughh ok I am getting teary eyed!!